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what i don't understand.
is how everyone is happy all the time.
i mean...that might sound weird.
don't get me wrong. i'm happy.
just not, as much as most people.
school just keeps getting, worse and worse and worse
home isn't much excitment either
lately my parents are always gone
so i'm always alone.
they're getting us ready for highschool already
can't they just let us enjoy the last year of middleschool
i don't want to sit around thinking about credits for
highschool. most of my friends aren't even going
to Grapevine. Everyone is going to Colleyville
i guess its for the good. maybe i do need to
start over. meet new people. become a whole
different person. I don't know.
we all know that. this age love doesn't occur.
but for some reason we know what it is.
or maybe when we think we know what it is
thats all we have to grasp of it.
maybe its more powerful then what we think it is.
i don't know if i know what love really is.
but how i feel towards someone.
is strong. really really strong.
although we all know that it would never work.
i fail at most things given to me.
somehow mess it up.
ha. i tend to mess everything up.
i guess its something im used too.
just like crying
i can't even feel them comming anymore
its such a familliar feeling.
they just flow onto my cheeks
then i forget anything ever happend
and just smile.
numb
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